I have always been such a people person, until I moved to Carmel. Sade and I burned a few bridges when we moved out of the apartment in Broad Ripple, although I still believe it was for the best. Making friends is a lot harder than I ever imagined it would be. When do I have time to make friends? How and where do you make friends? Policy at work says that I’m not allowed to befriend my coworkers. There is another lesbian couple that Sade and I are friends with, but she is closer to them than I. Nothing is familiar here. However, while driving home from work last night, I did see two deer by the high school football field. That made me feel a lot better; something insignificant to most. My high school was so small, that you were allowed an excused absence if you went hunting on the first day of the season. The town over doesn’t even have school that day.
I spend a lot of time at work day dreaming about traveling and meeting new people. Sometimes I get caught up in day dreams where someone “famous”, or someone that I idolize, will come into Panera and I will befriend them. Sometimes I catch myself getting a little too chatty with customers, because I just like to converse and I don’t get much of a chance any more.
Tomorrow I’m going to buy a few books and read until I have to head to work… What if I become an introvert?